Today, I did something that was fun. Something that I wish was done in different company. Now I'm not saying that Mariel wasn't good enough, but it just wasn't right. Maybe I should tell you what this something is before you think I'm telling you worthless bits of information that have nothing to do with you or would interest you in any way. I went to see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.
It was good, that much is undeniable. But I can't exactly say that it came with a shade of disappointment and sadness. Truth is, I still miss you, I still think about you and yes, I still occasionally have to fight tears when dwelling on memories that are now becoming so uncomfortably distant.
So, I'm sitting in the cinema with Mariel and watch as the opening of Harry Potter fills the screen. At this point, I have a sort of half smile because the last time I saw the beginning of a Harry Potter, I was sitting with you and Chi. Instead, when I look on either side of me, it's Mariel and some random. Again, I must clarify that there i NOTHING WRONG WITH MARIEL. I just miss the way things used to be. Too many things have changed and it bothers me more than even I thought it would.
I guess the point of this post is to just say that I hate the fact that there i an empty seat where you should be. I know I have said that in previous post(s) but I can't get over that fact. I don't like that so many things have changed or that so much has time has passed but most of all, I hate the way I've gotten used to it all. Because that means that your absence is hurting less and less. I know it sounds crazy but I liked the way it hurt because now that i'm getting used to it, it feels more R.E.A.L. painful. F u r t h e r t h a n e v e r b e f o r e
Yours Truly,
Kyleen
It was good, that much is undeniable. But I can't exactly say that it came with a shade of disappointment and sadness. Truth is, I still miss you, I still think about you and yes, I still occasionally have to fight tears when dwelling on memories that are now becoming so uncomfortably distant.
So, I'm sitting in the cinema with Mariel and watch as the opening of Harry Potter fills the screen. At this point, I have a sort of half smile because the last time I saw the beginning of a Harry Potter, I was sitting with you and Chi. Instead, when I look on either side of me, it's Mariel and some random. Again, I must clarify that there i NOTHING WRONG WITH MARIEL. I just miss the way things used to be. Too many things have changed and it bothers me more than even I thought it would.
I guess the point of this post is to just say that I hate the fact that there i an empty seat where you should be. I know I have said that in previous post(s) but I can't get over that fact. I don't like that so many things have changed or that so much has time has passed but most of all, I hate the way I've gotten used to it all. Because that means that your absence is hurting less and less. I know it sounds crazy but I liked the way it hurt because now that i'm getting used to it, it feels more R.E.A.L. painful. F u r t h e r t h a n e v e r b e f o r e
Kyleen
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